I did do some meditation the other day, and while it was brief, it was somewhat successful. I was able to focus on the "nothing" for a longer proportion of time than usual, as well as focus on the sensations of relaxation physically going through my body. There were fewer intrusive thoughts passing through my mind during that time, albeit, in total, it was only about 3-4 minutes.
Later on in the evening, the thoughts about recent events were racing through my mind, and only let go when I concentrated on other things (for instance, watching a movie). It's good that I was able to separate my thoughts when concentrating on something else.
Now that these events are a couple of days past, maybe I'll have some more success with a longer session of meditation. I'll give it another go in a couple of hours.
I did skip exercising yesterday because I did have a bit of muscle soreness (a normal, expected amount based on a decent workout), and it's good to have a rest day anyway. I'll do a bit of working out in a couple of hours as well. This time, I'll do bodyweight workouts rather than using the exercise machine that I was suing at my grandparents' home.
Moods have been primarily neutral to negative, but I retain the ability to laugh at jokes. Moments of happiness have been exceptionally brief and fleeting. I'm rather empty because I'm not spending time doing things I actually wanted to do for myself, but that's the nature of life sometimes. I'm not sure when, but I'll make a bit of time for myself at some point.
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