There are days like this, it's cool to be able to reminisce and think through and even more beautiful to write it out like you've done.
You are strong and you have come this far. It might seem like you are stuck or the progress is in bits(it is progress in the right direction).
You’ve been pushing, learning and seeking to get better which is great.
You will eventually get to your desired destination and these stories will be the inspirational stories that led to your success, you’ll see. Just keep at it !luv !hug