I completely understand your frustration and seeing the hive price, people are probably silent nowadays. I would say you can change your perception a little bit about hive. Engagement helps boost your post greatly; besides actifit, you can also try other communities for posting on a daily or weekly basis. Hive price is low and that's why rewards are not much. Your actifit journals are amazing and I personally read your journal whenever I can. Sometimes curators miss curation due to time differences or because of the criteria but that doesn't mean something is wrong.

I’ve done lot of errors here on Hive

You are not alone, so do not think like that I would suggest. Most of us made mistakes on Hive at some point and we learned and focused on growing only...