Peace despite the circumstances ...

Everyone has experienced some anxiety. And I think I have it, because I feel overwhelmed to the point of feeling bored when I start talking.

I know that facing my emotions can be difficult, but it is there, in that introspection, that I can start to understand what I really need. Looking inward does not mean dealing only with my problems, but recognizing that inside me there are the answers and the strength to get ahead.

There is honestly no telling which is worse if dealing with the symptoms or with the judgments. 🙆🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

Of course to eliminate that suffering, and to think that the one who wants that, is the Ego that always wants everything fast and at the cost of whatever 😅 and how to explain to the Ego that suffering is part of life, and that it's not about eliminating it, because this is impossible, it's about facing it, decredycir its emotional load when discovering why we suffer? And learn to live with that.

Sometimes and I speak to them from my experience my beliefs were wrong, erroneous, but I have learned that no matter what happens I have always suffered for some reason, because suffering also teaches, the hard way but it does teach...

Recognizing without being judged or criticized and reflecting on everything I say, knowing myself, recognizing my dark side and identifying it, only in this way have I been able to achieve balance and most importantly peace despite the circumstances.

Even if you don't believe me!!!... it has taken me a lot to leave my past behind, to reconcile with strong, maybe ugly, obsessive and intrusive actions that I took in the past, and sometimes in this now, in the present tense thoughts come to me one after the other like a movie, memories one after the other until it affects me so much that it seems that I am in that moment, and that saddens me, it has taken me so long to forgive myself for things that I see that others do normally and move on with their life, what a thing with the mind, I would like a reprogramming of the software 😂.

In some cases the conflict is with the moral, because they are moralistic thoughts that go against unfounded social beliefs, and to think that that is not so, because those moral norms also go against the exact nature of the human being and because of that excessive and unfounded moralism that we all have within ourselves, is that we suffer, by the magnification of any problem, and it is horrible.

It's a daily struggle that we all have and giving me that time and space is an act of caring and self-love, definitely.

Janitze 🌹