The moment of pain, some years ago, on October 19th, when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, when the healing process began to take effect.
Not precisely because I had gone through years and years of therapy, of managing my emotions, of using resources to manage them... Anyway, if not, because such a terrible diagnosis in a matter of minutes changed my life... And yes, I can tell you for sure that life can change in an instant.
With my heart broken into a thousand pieces, with band-aids covering scars and wounds, I began to reconnect with myself, to put this time if, as a priority; I learned to receive love, that one that was given to me and that I did not know how to receive it, because I did not think I deserved it, (which made more than one emotionally abused me among some relatives, friends colleagues).
I began to value my time, I began to do the things that I liked the most and that for so many reasons I didn't do or I never did them because of fear, fear or.because I simply said to myself "you still have time, Janitze"...
I also understood that HEALING is not at all easy, that it requires bravely opening the windows, the doors, the locks where the ghosts of pain are, but also facing them and knowing that we are much stronger than they are.
Healing changed my life for the better, it made me grow and value myself much more in body and soul. My beloved husband was my company throughout this process that I lived and overcame by the hand of my husband.
I want to tell you who read me, that my life would not have been the same without him. Today I also celebrate our life together, with our commitment, companionship and the generosity of going through this great challenge together.
Today I am another person, or maybe the same with my soul full of kindness and nobility for my well-being and health, I understand that life is to live, and now every day I live this new opportunity, but different from the previous life I had.
Sometimes when things don't happen quickly we get discouraged and we may think that nothing is going well, but sometimes they are just asking us for patience to be able to put things in order. Sometimes they are just preparing us for the next step.
What I am sure of is that I no longer hurt myself, nor do I allow others to do it to me.
What I'm writing today is part of my life story, and it's always good to remember that international breast cancer day is celebrated every October 19th.
In this pink(rose)month 🩷, today I share my testimony about the fight against breast cancer. Every day is a battle that must be faced with great determination.
I continue with the preventive routine...
Raising awareness of the early prevention of breast cancer through digital mammography once a year and annual or semi-annual checks according to the previous findings, is my key...
I just know that healing is the most beautiful gift of love that we deserve.
Janitze.🌷
Separator made with Canva by @janitzearratia
Any images in this post are taken with my iPhone 12, the Infinix pro-note 30 or with the camera eighties Rolleiflex 2.8 f, and edited by me with Canva
Translation with |DeepL