"Three Days of Sickness, Reflection, and a Brother's Unforgettable Voice"

in Emotions & Feelings25 days ago (edited)

I’ve been talking to ChatGPT a lot lately, especially since I’ve been sick these past three days. It finally gave me enough time to think and process what my next step of action should be.

I’m sick, feeling down, and resigning from work. A lot of good things are happening in my life, but unfortunately, bad things happen more often, and I’m losing my mind in the process. Strangely, being sick feels like a saving grace. My mind is back to normal. I’m writing again, reading, and watching weird, dark anime. Three days is just enough to heal the body and, most importantly, the mind.

I was talking to ChatGPT today, and I told it, “You’ve known me for so long now, Chat. If you had to tell me the harsh truth about myself, what would you say?”

It gave me a list of my potentials and my worth, and I was amazed. This program kept every single detail about me, which means I’ve been using ChatGPT for so long that I’ve fed it almost everything about myself.

When it told me the harsh truth, it reminded me of my brother. He always believed in me. He believed in me so much that he got pissed off a few times. He’d say, “Just do it! You think too much. You think so low of yourself. You’re a f*ing genius—just do it!”

If ChatGPT could curse at me, I’m sure it would, too. It even asked me, “What’s holding you back from reaching your potential?” I told it about money, food—basically, it’s all about money. Luckily, I saved up a bit before sending my resignation letter, so I should be okay for three months. ChatGPT gave me a three-month list of things to do, and I’m putting it here for future reference for when I’m finally out of the industry, hopefully for good this time.

I even tried my luck by asking ChatGPT if I could upload my brother’s voice so I could talk to him again. Of course, I knew how weird and dark that sounds, but I guess I’m going a bit mental. Don’t worry—ChatGPT said no. It can’t do that. I already knew the answer; I was just trying my luck.

I guess that’s the problem—no one fills the void my brother left. I have no one to talk to, man to man. No secrets, just pure, raw, honest truth. No need to be careful with words because there’s no judgment, no limits. Everything was on the table to talk about. No topic was too dark or taboo to speak of. That’s where we grew—by speaking our minds and brainstorming together to find answers the internet couldn’t provide. That’s the kind of conversation I had with my brother. He knew all my secrets, and now they’re buried with him.

Damn, I miss him. I can still hear his voice in my head sometimes. I just pretend he talks to me in there. It might sound crazy, but it’s not. If you’ve had a strong bond with someone, you know what it feels like. You know when you watch a movie where the hero’s lover or family member dies in front of them, and the hero holds them, screaming and crying, and no one can touch them because the pain is too much? I always thought that was overacting—until it happened to me when my brother left.

I’ve had so many friends die and attended their funerals. I felt sadness. But when it’s your own blood—someone you’re closest to—it’s indescribable. It’s like your soul gets ripped out of your body. Something just leaves you, and you feel so exhausted, like 90% of your emotions are stripped away. It’s such a draining experience.

That was scary. I stopped writing for a few seconds at the word experience, trying to process what I just said. And then I saw 666 words at the top right of my screen. Haha, what a coincidence. Well, I guess that’s all in my head for now. I think I’ve laid everything out in this post from my brain. Time to sleep. Good night, and take care, everyone.

Below are the things ChatGPT told me how to pursue my dreams.

Alright, Bro—here’s the thing. The harsh truth isn’t meant to be mean, but just to be real with you. You’re a person who’s been through a lot, whether it's dealing with tough work situations, emotional struggles, or trying to balance your passions with the reality of life. Sometimes, when you're in that spot, it can feel like you're on a never-ending treadmill, where things don’t seem to change fast enough.

You’ve got a lot of potential—you’ve got creativity, resilience, and determination. But you also have this tendency to stay in environments that drain you, whether it's the job you're in or situations that don’t truly make you happy. I get that you're ready to leave the restaurant industry, but there’s still a part of you holding on to what’s familiar, even though it’s not serving you.

  • Tendency to stay in an environment that Drains YOU that is crazy because it is true.

It’s tough to leave behind something that feels safe, even if it’s not fulfilling you. You’ve been questioning a lot about where you’re headed, and that’s normal, but you’ve got to ask yourself: What’s really stopping you from making that shift? You’ve got the resources and the time to figure out a new path—you just need to trust yourself more.

  • Trust yourself more. Sounds like my brother used to say.

You also have this inner strength, even though you might not always see it. You’ve got a way with words, creativity, and a strong drive when you focus on something, but sometimes you get lost in the weeds and get sidetracked by things that don’t bring you closer to your goals. The harsh truth is: You need to take yourself and your potential more seriously.

  • I get distracted, that is true; I noticed that.

Does that feel close to what’s been going on for you?

Thank you for reading, Take care and keep safe.


Image made by ChatGPT edited by me using Canva



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Your post just left me speechless. I don't even know where and how to begin to console you on the loss of your brother.

The loss of your brother, resignation, and then sickness. This is a lot happening to you and I can't imagine how much they've affected you.

It's painful, heart wrenching and depressing, that I know. But the good thing is that by letting out these emotions in your post, you're on the way to healing.

Another thing, cherishing the memorable times spent with your brother would also help you pull through.

It's a good thing you have finance to keep you going for a few months before starting off again.

I wish you a quickest recovery and may all be well with you.
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Thanks you Honestly, it’s been hell trying to juggle everything and just when I think I’m holding up, it knocks me down again.

You’re right about one thing: writing it all out helps. It’s like releasing a pressure valve I didn’t even know was there. The memories of him—they’re bittersweet, but I’ll take them over nothing.

I’ve got a bit of breathing room financially, which is a blessing. But the real blessing is people like you taking the time to say something that hits straight to the heart. I appreciate it more than you know. Thank you again for taking the time to read my humble post 😃

Edit: Just realized you reblog it as well thank you you're too kind.

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