I can see you are deep in thought. When you look behind the curtain it looks pretty bad, but then you discover the emperor has no clothes so it is reason to not take it so seriously imo.
I had a problem when I was younger adult in that,.no matter how bad a.day I had, I would wake up super positive the next day... I could make myself sad when waking up... It could have been a personal defect, even if the day ahead was bleak...