That is a remarkable picture ... and yes, at 43, one's DNA has changed with age ... I am 43, and I co-sign what you are saying!
But sometimes, we and the Lord and the flowers and lizards have to just reach for contentment and stay in our own little world. At this point, I live from my own world, go into the worlds I share with others, and return ... staying grounded in the fact that the Lord is taking care of all things including us is key...