I hear your pain and Frustration Luv ❤️. Hang in there I CAN relate to you about the Sunshine vs. no sunshine. However being a Guy I can only imagine post-partdom and all those things.
Keep in mind that Mom's are super special, actually I will be picking mine up today at the hospital she stayed overnight for surgery not life threatening it was "woman things and from having alot of Children" that's all she told me. Which was enough. I know what you mean when you mentioned talking with your Son's all is good in the moment and then when it's over it's like a sledgehammer, I find myself going thru very similar experiences as well ❤️‍🩹. Hang in there my Friend 🤗🤗🤗