Hey Jerry,

I enjoyed reading about your trials and tribulations with acts of altruism. There's a lot of parallels here with how I operate in altruistic ways as well, and have also adopted the "not carrying cash" at times thing so that I don't have to lie to beggars when it does not suit me to help. I like to help, but sometimes I just cannot afford to help others in monetary ways.

"Against my better judgement" is something I often recite after certain acts of helping others too.

It's hard to fathom that sometimes there isn't certain expectations that come from certain forms of helping. Perhaps there were some expectations attached to this help, but your loving nature is what prompted to you to help "against the better judgement", so it's important to remember that I would say. You help people because you're a loving man and have experienced many facets of life, and are able to see things in people that they may not have discovered about themselves on their journey yet.

It took him nearly 90 min to get dressed!!!!!!!!
I was LIVID, but help my temper, until he said (coming down from the tent with yet another container, which I thought was going to be empty so she could put her stuff in it, but which was FULL as he came down the hill) ... he said to me:
"Jerry, could you please change your tone with me?"

Sounds like a little bit of avoidance based thinking/behaving, being stuck in his head trying to overcome his fears.

My experiment with Altruism ended with them, maybe not for others, but for them it is done.

That is probably fair in this case. It's possible and probable that you helped them more than they can even see currently, and one day they may revisit this memory with a deep gratitude. I think your sacrifice was well worth it, even if it came as a bit of an expense to you. You learned some things from it, and hopefully they did as well.