It's past 2am when I woke up, stretched myself ,yawned and made out of the bed to the sitting room thinking that it's a daylight already. I asked myself, why haven't I heard the sounds of cockcrow and also why is everywhere so quiet that it's only the sounds of birds that's being heard. Then I looked at the Window and saw how dark everywhere looks, reached out to the Clock on my wall and Behold the time is 15 Minutes past 2am.
Having wondered what woke me up that early morning, the smile on my face and Enthusiasm, I realized it's another year that I woke up to,Oh it's a new year I said to myself, The beautiful nature, the sounds of the birds seem different now and the wind blows gently like it never did. The sky is in its full bright colour and The Joy in me became doubled, Sitting down on my sofa and still admiring the good things Words struck my heart and I became Uncomfortable in my thoughts.
You asked me what happened?. I heard you do that, I began to think of what my previous years have been like and still wanted to know if this year would be same.i went deep into my thought became so lost in it that I didn't know when the cock crowed. I thought of many things which I would love to share and also want you to be part of this new year impact.
This is me in my deep thought.
My previous years have been full of ups and downs, Horrible experience and full of omen but at same time adorable for some reasons. Why would I use a contrasting word adorable in this, It's true that Like I have mentioned above Nothing seems to be good out of it but I must say that they have been most of my best years Because they got me thinking for the first time of my life on what I need to change and also most impacts that I need to create this new year. it brought an idea of new year resolution Resolution??.
My first time of using this word since I grew up. There are some things I have done years back that I'm not proud of and frankly speaking they all contributed to what brings the sentence of the day on board, Here are some of the things that I know I have done but I got to resolve them.
A lot but few I will mention here.
Procrastination: I have lived past of my lives saying that I will do things that I never did ,for instance ,I have once said that I will do a new thing like Having some group reading and also be exposed to things that I will enhance my reading ability which till now I haven't done yet
Secondly: Making futile Excuses for Not going to places: The past years have been just me and my phone, no places to go, nothing to explore and no friends to go to, people to meet. I have lived a life of retarded growth in our Africa Community.
Fear of taking Risk: Talking about this, I'm that girl that has always lived in fear of beginning new things,and taking responsibility of what happens to me.The life I have lived all my years are what I told myself that I need to change them, like an adage word' Change is Constant ".
I was still lost in my thoughts, wandering in many oceans of emotions When my sis Came out to hand my phone to me,I checked it and the number of missed calls and text messages I had was overwhelming with new year messages in which one of my distant cousins In her words said, Happy new year Cynthia, Go out more often this time and Make friends!!!!.
Still deep in my thoughts,my sister brought my phone to me.
I felt loved but realising that all the calls and messages were from relatives alone none from a friend, I went gloom but the joy of knowing that I'm a step away to changing the perspectives. I became filled with joy again.
I sprang up on my feet and said to myself, Cynthia,This is you in another new phase and I will live the life this time in fullest, enjoy the moment, take pictures of the things I do Because if No one else has to do what you are about to do I still will. Catch up with you Next time .
It's a big step away,,,,, I said to myself with a big smile.
