I sat down and asked myself, what's the biggest lesson that I've learned as a Christian this year? There's four months left in this year.
And the answer I came up with was simply, I learned to choose to trust God.
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For as long as I can remember in my relationship with God, I always ended up having to trust him because I exhausted all my other options. I never gave him a chance initially to show me who he could be for me before the pain, before the trauma, before pushing myself into things that didn't want me.
But I'm trying to make myself fit there. And I think this year has simply taught me to choose God first.
I tried to overcome depression on my own.I was extremely codependent in relationships. I was looking for God's love there and didn't realize it. I've been extremely hard on myself, trying to be for myself what I should have allowed God to be for me this whole time.
But this year, I learned the power and the value of surrender.
When I gave God my relationships, and I'm going to be real, at times it felt like it was harder to trust him than it was not to trust him. And that's a lie from the enemy. But now, instead of having to get to the point where I can trust God, I can trust him.
Instead of having to get to the point where I'm almost at my life's end, now I'm choosing to trust him first.
God, I feel this way. Let me go to you about it. Let me talk to you about what I'm feeling.
God, I feel like I'm stepping out of my capacity.
Every time I do that, I know that my body starts letting me know.
My nervous system starts telling me that's not okay.
So I'm going to intentionally make the choice to invite you into it so I can step out.
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