You need to put yourself first. If you're not in a good place, then you've lost the ability to help others which simply exasperates the problem and the vicious cycle never ends.
Take time out. Do whatever it takes to fix yourself and then return stronger.
The nicer a person is, the more sensitive they are and the more they feel pain. You're one of the nicest.
Taken care, get well and forget all the 'man' shit. You're a human who's suffering.
In my current state, I find myself feeling that I deserve to suffer, while wanting to put my family first. I just keep myself up enough to ensure that I can still help my family and work my job. It's not going to be sustainable for a long time. But hey, I'll get out of this nuttiness as I did last time.
Thanks for your kind words.
You will :-)
Let us know if you require any further cliches and Google psychiatrists to give you a pep talk! lol
Take care, do whatever you need to be well again :-)