I feel like I have traversed similar paths to those you have walked, Steve, and it is a tough road to navigate. Mine was due to hormone imbalances which resulted in a struggle to control my emotional responses, as well as suffering periods of stress and anxiety. My whole body would feel out of kilter... It would feel like I was vibrating inside... extreme unease, unable to calm my body... or still my mind. I would get palpitations - and this would increase my anxiety and stress. This happened on and off for years. I finally saw a doctor who diagnosed...wait for it... early onset menopause... geez... I was fortunate to have a very good and understanding GP... and in no time he had me on HRT patches... And...as my body found its new normal... I felt the changes within myself... and the calmness replaced the storms. I felt like I had got my life back... a person I felt I had lost so long before. I can so relate to this feeling of being at ease with yourself now - I was starting to wonder if there was something seriously wrong with me... before I discovered HRT. Now I know it was just a hormonal or chemical imbalance in my body. I appreciate that this isn't exactly the same for you as you seem to have struggled most of your life with this weight of uneasiness and you were able to work through it through the counseling of a good friend, but I just wanted to share that you are not alone in having had to deal with shitty stuff like this. Thank you for sharing 🤗 Sending !LUV !ALIVE ❣️