I fear myself the most, the part of myself that always tells me, I should not do a thing, we all have this in ourselves, and sometimes, if we can pay attention to ourselves very well, we will see that, this particular part of ourself that I am talking about, comes as an unimpressed feelings which we can't escape, what it has to say to us, but we can choose, if we are to do it or not.
This is the innermost darker part of oneself, it purpose is to always tries to stop us from going for what we want, and right now, I am scared of this part of myself, I am afraid of it in the sense that, it might want to grow bigger and if it does, it would affect me, and so, what am I going to do?
This sometimes, let me to be doing mediation, where I put all my mindsets one place and tried to put away all the blockages in my head and focused great things about myself, the dark part of me always make me to be feeling worthless and scared of events and scenario.
Last two months, I attend an event and I have make it known to the spokesperson that I have something to say, but it was after, I have make my intentions known that I started to have some unimpressed mindset that I shouldn't go out there and say what I wanted to say.
I was so disturbed and I have to go on a hidden place, where there was a mirror and convince myself, they was nobody there with me, I was looking at myself at that mirror to see if I was neatly dressed and I acted a little drama to see how I am going to carried my hands while I would be talking to the audience.
Thereafter, when I was called, I spoke vibrantly and all the unimpressed feelings didn't matter a bit, I make my speech and I grace the occasion perfectly, now thinking about the part in me that wanted to bring me down, if I did listened to it that time, I would have not had the boldness to go out there and say my speech.
Then what if this side of me take all over my mindset, what am I going to do?.
I realized that I do not have to back down for this unimpressed feelings, but I have to continue to remain bold at anytime, and it would leave and never come back.
