I appreciate the time you took to look up the meanings. Many of them could apply to my situation. At that time I had stopped living with my mother and had moved in with my aunt, uncle and grandmother. That for me represented a time of abandonment and I was surely in need of security. That may be why I also harbored negative emotions.

Thank you very much for stopping by and for the esteemed support dear @ericvancewalton . A big hug from Maracay.

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