I've been thinking long about where I am now in life and I have to say it has been really rough trying to balance my thoughts. I'm thinking of all the positives and the negatives. I have to be honest, it's been more negative. The experiences of my teen years were interesting but filled with mistakes and punishment. My childhood was relatively forgettable. My young adult life was complicated. Today, I don't think I've ever been lower.
It's so crazy how life has turned out. Don't get me wrong, everything could be worse but I'm so stuck right now. Living paycheck to paycheck isn't fun and if things don't turn around for me, then I don't know what I'm going to do. The only thing now is to continue trying and praying for something better.