You know one of the craziest things about life that always fascinates me? It is how everyone lives their own life. I know that doesn't sound right, but let me explain deeper. You are conscious, you have your own thoughts, you have your own experience and you have your own life. No matter what you do, you can never see things through the eyes of someone else. Sure we can draw similarities and people can always tell you things and how they feel, but no matter what, you can never see things through their eyes. Your brain could be wired A, and someone else's brain is wired B and you can't know for sure if the person says their brain is also wired A.
It has been like this since the beginning of time, but recently I have been dreading this. How do I know I can trust someone? How do I prove my trust? Isn't there a way I could just see something and know for sure, and help calm my anxiety? Sadly there is no way. As I often do, I have been trying to adapt. Words are good, but they don't always tell the truth. You have to look at the actions. Over time the action will eventually reveal the truth. Eventually, even in the smallest of details, there may be something.
Then there's also the flip side of things. How do I get someone to believe me? I always struggle with this one, and it is this one is the one that always vexes me. I always sound so unenthusiastic or sometimes nonchalant about things and it is somewhat painful when someone thinks I am joking or not serious or not interested in what they're saying. When in fact I am. At some point, I even thought I was slightly autistic, but it turns out I'm not. I just got used to always acting nonchalant (something I did a lot when I was little).
How do I see myself through your eyes, and let you see yourself through mine
This is something I ask myself every day. If it were possible, life would be so much easier. But sadly it is not. And so I must navigate the difficult path. Letting time reveal the truth. I know myself, so I will tell the truth and let time back my claims. It is not easy, but then nothing in life is easy.
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